plastic eyes and essays

apa nak ditaip ni.

1) essays are done

after selesai tulis essay #1 sempat disiapkan essay #2 , shorter about 700-800 words, tapi rasenya better , tapi disebabkan kelam kabut  nak naik bas pun sempat lagi taip.

rasenya sebab ia ditulis with such haste tak sgt berkualiti, tapi tak boring yang mcm first one. 

I know no one gets this excited over an essay competition, tapi as I've mentioned many times, english is my favorite subject and the only thing I'm good at.( lame, huh)

Aside from vigorous exercise, it seems to be the only thing to get my adrenaline pumping (I know I am such a nerd, but again , nerd ape yang boleh fail 4 paper mase dia diploma?)

sekarang tgh cari pertandingan lagi tapi pencariannya terasa sia sia : dia punya syarat2 mcm2 : untuk org sarawak sahaja, untuk pelajar sekolah rendah dan menengah sahaja, untuk pelajar uitm kelantan sahaja, (dah dekat dah tu)  untuk warga perak sahaje, bahasa melayu sahaja, jawi sahaja . I think  negara kita ni perlu kan lebih writing competition supaya dapat melahirkan rakyat yang lebih pandai dan banyak berfikir.( macamlah I am those things)



2) finally managed to put contact lenses into my eye balls (by myself that is)

I believe, ini adalah sebuah kejayaan yang tidak ternilai harganya, dan akan ditulis dalam diari ku yg sebenar. I managed to do this yesterday after perhaps a thirty minute of  trial and error. (kita rase sgt poyo tapi why shouldn't I be proud with myself right?)

Mula-mula dgn mami kita by myside, lepas tu dia letih dan fed up ( tahulah dia dah pro kan), dia pun belah.

After nudging my eyeballs repetitively , finally dengan tidak percayanya melekat jugak kat anak mata kita .  

Wahahaha  (as you can see, I am truly ecstatic by this), BERJAYA jugak.  after  hari ini pun lebih kurang jugak ceritanya, tapi tanpa mami bising-bising my side.

So that's about it.

Final words, Selamat RAMADHAN and happy fasting.

akhirnya...

ade 2 perkara akhirnya yang perlu ditegaskan setegas-tegasnya di sini.

Perkara pertama: 

 AKHIRNYA KAWAN KITA NI CALL JUGAK

rupanya kena jual mahal sikit : Jual mahal maksudnya 2 minggu lebih tak call dan mesej dia.
Dia punya reason munasabah la gak. dia kata dia takde kredit nak call kita balik which explained why she called me using her mom's office phone.  When I told her "kita merajuk tahu tak" she said she knew( sebab dia mesej x jawab dan berminggu-minggu x call dia)

Lepas tu she said jangan merajuk lama-lama. I wanted to yell at her how evil she is and how she made me feel like my best friend   dumped me.  I did actually yell out "ko jahat." tapi it ended with a laughter. Sebab  I could hear at the end that  was she laughing  too. perhaps she found my childish sulking was hillarious. I think she would laugh even more, if I told her I burst into tears that day she won't go out with me.

Perhaps kita patut bagi tahu dia ,that I started a brand new blog, the day I got mad at her. and the initial reason  (not the main reasons) that I wrote a new blog ( and terminate the old one) was to tell the whole world about how much I got mad at her without she finding out about it . I don't think I should though


# reason number 2
 FINALLY FINISHED THE ESSAY
The reason why I could write a blog right now, is because I finished and sent in the essay, I wrote about  in my last post. Reliefnya. Rasenya sempat lagi buat essay #2. Tapi tunggu bahu dengan mata ni habis sakitnya dulu, malam ni spent habiskan baca blog org-org yg interesting. Sekarang nak tulis yg lebih pendek pulak sebab hari tu tak baca syarat nya  betol2 dia kata : not to exceed 1500 words  BUKANNYA no less than 1500 words. tapi x pe dah siap dah pun. so malam ni boleh lepak. dan buat benda-benda x berfaedah.


obviously the word AKHIRNYA sangat bermakna to me today... 

inspiration atau lack of it

Ada pertandingan menulis  ni  held by the SUN titled 'Malaysia and Me' date line on 29.7

Mcm senang tahap gila kan?! Tapi I know  a 16 year old me can write better than I can now . I bet you if this pertandingan was held five years ago I stand a better chance of winning than I do now. Now I sucked .
I literally feel dumb.
I feel like someone should be blamed for this. Should I blame myself? or should I blame my university's poor syllabus selection. Seriously, SPM punya English  paper lagi challenging dari ni. And I liked it better.

 I tried but nothing seems to come to mind . Apa taknya lepas 3 perkataan backspace 2 perkataan.

I can't not hit the DELETE button after I typed down 5 words

And then I deleted a paragraph that took me 30 minutes to type only to have a staring contest with a blank computer screen after wards.

So macammna ni? I thought about writing from my experience mase praktikal training kat Melaka but fear it will be too boring? Even with the right choice of words? 

And a contestant  can send at most 3 stories of her choice. I feel like I want to write all 3 tapi 1 pun tak siap lagi, so what should I do?

I wanted to enter a story writing competition before yg  a&w punya.  dah siap dah pun . tapi tak hantar je sebab untuk hantar perlukan receipt rm 20.00 .( banyak cekadak punya  a&w) jadi terbiar mcm tu je...

Adoi biol biol....


Rasenya mcm nak call my best friend to ask her go out with me this friday, tapi she turned me down twice, which makes me feel macam nak bunuh dia .but I missed her a lot and there are so many things I need to tell her. So biol X4

Rasanya mcm my best friend is dumping me...

For a little while I feel like I want to hurt her, 

rasa mcm nak marah ,

nak list all the things that is wrong with her

  all the while being friends with her for three whole years . Tapi nanti dia list all the things that is wrong with me pulak. Jadi macammna ni????

     She's nice and I am nice. That's just it. I can't yell  at her for the wrong things she's doing without making me look like the BIG BAD WOLF who is trying eat her whole because she doesn't seem to know what is she doing wrong. 

God ,I am so mad ,so furious  and I think I am mad at her BECAUSE DIA ADA KEHIDUPAN  and I am living my life in front of the tv, cooking , belajar mengaji and learning to drive. 

Derma darah semalam

It wasn't my first. It was my third. Tapi rasanya macam it was the first time for the male nurse.
Dari segan-segan nak pegang  cari vein sampai terbukak glove.
Dari pegang tangan kanan sampai pegang tangan kiri.
Rasenya ada sekurang- sekurangnya 6 alcohol swab dia taruk dekat tangan .  lepas alcohol swab dekat tangan dia pergi tempat lain.

Swab alcohol sikit pergi kat org lain
Swab alcohol sikit panggil nurse apahal tak nampak vein.
Swab alcohol sikit tukar tangan lagi la pulak.

Seriously I don't mind , tapi I am telling all of you this because it was a delightful experience. Tengok org Cucuk ubat kat tangan, darah keluar ikut tiub tu, it was all a delightful experience.

Ayah yang mind kut , sebab lepas dia selesai, kita baru nak cucuk. Aside, from my arm feels like nak jatuh satu hari tu, everything was alright, and donate blood because IT SAVES LIVES.