What I woke up to today

I live here.
Dekat tepi bukit. Bukit Tampin namenya.
I think it was a pretty sight. Don't you?
Well, I am not very good with the camera..
I've been living here for like thirteen years now.
I used to hate it here, since I felt like I've been forced to move.
But since I started secondary school  mungkin secara x sedarnya I started to like it here.

You see I am a kampung girl, always has been, always will be. The kampung I grew up in was called Slim Village, Slim River Perak. Ulu sgt.... jauh sgt....... I moved to a town when I was 10 sangatlah upset mase tu....

You see I've been praying to God recently to give me a job.
And now I think God has given me more that what I've  wanted

I have two job offers.
One as a customer service. Basically doing basic office work. And should anything goes wrong ,I'll be the person the customers will look for. It is for a renowned  courier company.

The other as a trainer. To help people and companies to find the best in them and use that to help them grow. There will  be a lot of traveling too. So I think it  would be fun.

Both jobs I believe are the same. I get to meet people. But I think the other one is more in my area. Both jobs are dekat city. The second one is at Damansara Perdana. And this place scares the hell out of me. Sgt banyak kereta and I am not a very strong driver.  So today I woke up thinking, nanti kerja dah x dapt tgk sights like these and do stuff that I am doing now. Kind of why I got out of the house mase matahari pun belum nampak lagi.

Esok I need to tell the latter company, that I am taking their offer.Kind of why I am feeling weird right now. I am afraid that as I go into actual work I might lose my personality,  my passion,  and a bunch of other stupid stuff.

Other than the magnificent view, this is what I woke up to today...

selepas tamat belajar di UiTM

It was my second visit to UiTM after I have graduated. Well not really, I don't think I've graduated until I awkwardly march on that stage (that's what happened the last time I was there, that's why till today I couldn't look at the DVD ) to pick up my degree transcript.

Kali ini my second visit to UiTM seemed friendlier, seemed less scarier  maybe  because I did do what I came there to do, talked to my fav lecturer , talked and spent sometimes with  my KEFAJAR mates, have a sharing session with my former classmate. Accept for the endless moving to attend classes, it felt as if I never left.

My visit to Dr Umi's office, was one that I treasured most. One that I still thank God till today (With that being said Alhamdulillah) She was recently added to my list of the people I want to be like (I know only nerds like their teachers, tapi peduli ape)  Dia biase-biase je. She doesn't makes jokes while she's teaching, she doesn't favour me. But I do like that she understands what it is like to feel weak. She does what ever she can to make us help each other ( This she does by pakse kita org buat study group, yg dia dah set up who the group members are going to be). She said sebab dia nak semua orang dapat A, bukan sorang-sorang jer I also like how she never once yelled at us, even soalan tu dah tanya like numerous of times. (I did this once, without realising that the same question has popped up before I asked )

I guess I like her because she helps people who are socially awkward like me to work with people who they are not used to working with. I also admire how she 's able to keep her emotions straight when she's teaching. Maybe because she used to be like me too, socially awkward and not the best of her class.

My conversation with her  has been an informative and a priceless one. Not of Proteomics and Eukaryotics Cell Biology, but of  what she has done after she has obtained her first degree, how she came to be a lecturer, why my mom is not letting me work for anything less than my degree and that I should  teach the orphanage to keep my English from getting rusty. One thing I forgot to ask her was  macammana dia keep from getting marah2 bila kita org tanya dia banyak soalan (She's a woman, so it does awe me how she does it).

I guess kite belajar lebih banyak, lepas tamat belajar di UiTM rather mase belajar di UiTM.

Super glad I am writing again

I am glad the last post I've written ended up as a draft. I know now what being angry for a little too long can do to me. I didn't talk to my mom  for a week. Everything I ate doesn't seem to say down. My chest is warmer than it was supposed to be. Because of my warm chest I have trouble sleeping. Yang paling teruk I stopped writing.. I stopped writing even weeks after I finished being angry with my mom.

Last week I went out with kawan-kawan lama yang dah lama kenal and kawan-kawan lama yang baru kenal in a team building program. It turns out this friend of mine is an actual writer. Not like me of course. An actual writer who've gotten paid for her work. A Malay  poetry writer. She taught me how to make it, but she also told me the obstacles she has to face. That she makes a lot more money selling her books of poetry in Indonesia than in Malaysia, because Malaysians don't read a lot. There's this one time when she makes RM10 000 to get her books published. Can you imagine that..  kalo org yg tulis buku bahasa Melayu pun tak boleh nak jual buku dekat Malaysia.. what to become of english writers like me?

But all that aside, I am super glad that I am writing again.