My family (dearest cousin)

I have this cousin... I wrote about her in a previous post... She 's a very 'sihat' five- year old (if you know what I mean). Since she lives with my grandmother, my aunt and her dad.... there's not really things for her  to do ataupun someone to play with...  rasa nya tu sebab she gained a few pounds....

So when we (by we I mean my parents  and  I) came over to break fast last week... she gets really excited. I guess sebab ade org untuk hiburkan dia... but my god  she was really active  (not to mention heavy) and sgt manja...my mom  rase agak kesian kat dia.. she has no one to play with on a daily basis...

That weekend, my mom and me (or is it my my mom and  I) pergi beli baju raya untuk at the nearest  Mydin.. since we managed to get her measurements that night... you wouldn't believe how hard is it untuk cari baju kurung for a five-year old dengan ukuran pinggang 32 inci.. in the month of ramdhan of all months.. where semua org keluar untuk shopping... dari bawah sampai ke atas,  from that baju kurung to this baju kurung,... dengan my mom  with her measuring tape... when we finally found... mind you baju kurung yg sgt panjang that is meant untuk budak yg berumur 8thn kut... my mom search the mall again for a baju blouse but to no avail...

See susah untuk cari baju raya.. untuk budak yg agak 'sihat' ...maybe if she's living a healthier lifestyle  doing and eating healthy things... dia mungkin x kan debab...... and mungkin x masih pakai diaper mcm sekarang (I'm glad that my grandmother didn't babysat me too long)

I love her.. she's my family,  she's practically the little sister I've never had.. maybe because  she's a debab resurrection  of me... but I seriously think she's better off living with her parents and her brother.... at least she would be a lot more discipline and living a healthier lifestyle too...
 But what can I do my my uncle (her dad) mane boleh tinggal  my nenek mcm tu je... since my  nenek sgt syg my uncle that he can't live by himself...


I pray that my cousin syg as she gets older will have colourful and enriched life... ( a little discipline and structure wouldn't hurt of course)

the 'Mom card'

 Peace upon you and Selamat berpuasa
I'm graduating... soon. Last friday I've received surat tawaran utk buat master...
As with every ending the is always a beginning.. itu sebab I am never sad... sebab with every new people I meet I got to reinvent myself, be someone better and hopefully make lasting friendships. Bukannya tak suka dgn kawan kawan lama, its just that susah nak bina diri balik dgn kawan-kawan lama, diorg tak boleh accept that you want to change, you want to be a better person..... they find that it is a little too weird that you want start to talk to them or make friends with them...

But I did make a few great friends if not many.... mungkin lebih baik mcm tu... so that I'll value their friendships... sebab maybe Tuhan lebih tahu, if I have a lot of friends I'll probably take them for granted...

To me, this beginning comes with options....
1) untuk kerja.. not part time but really work...
2)untuk sambung master
3)I'm even planning to start a company with a few friends....


I have decided to get a job ages go. Since, I have spent the last.... well I don't know... 5 years finishing my diploma+degree...exhausting both my brain and body.....I guess work is just the same... tapi  at least I will get paid this time ...

And then there's my mom with her Mom card, telling me how she wants me to pursue my studies, it wasn't just telling it was like a NARRATION as why I should do it and why during her time she didn't... to guilt me into it I guess...in the month of Ramadhan of all months

Don't get me wrong.. I DO want to pursue my studies.. just not now..not just when I've just finished my  degree... tapi she thinks aku tak nak blajar sampai bila-bila..

Permaisuri ku and her CARDS ......

Sahur with my dad...

4.50 am: I was woken up not by my dad but by kids on motorcycles yelling Sahur!! Sahur!!
For the first time in days I  woke up by myself. Well mostly I got up to pee. Then I will monitor my dad reheat my mom's cooking for sahur.... while I wait (I'm so helpful ... I know)

It has been a while since I write or read anything worth reading.. I always wanted to write but usually would succumb to kesibukan atau laziness. Nampaknya I decided to write dalam bulan ramadhan...  I forgot It was like to do what I like to do.. to write what I like to write, to read what I like to read... I guess that is the price being a final year student...tapi lepas ni dah tak jadi final year student dah once I've submitted my dissertation (which I am still procrastinating to finish up). Is it weird that I want to finish this as quickly as possible.. tapi rasa sedikit sedih that I'm finishing my degree?

" Tu budak2 je tu kacau tu. Dah lah banyak kaum"
I didn't think they are hooligans at first.. tapi I guess what he said kind of make sense. I wish my dad would said a lot more to me.. bukan mase sahur je but like on a daily basis... because when my mom is at school.. there's really nothing to talk about. It feels kind of awkward...

my cat at 5.20 am

That sahur ends with my cat mengada with my dad and have a "sahur" session of his own