So here it is, ( I think this is the only post that memenuhi tujuan blog ini ditubuhkan in the first place) thinking of posting it on fiction press too.
It was like having a stroke. Unable to move
a muscle, even when every neuron in your brain is instructing your muscle to
expand and to contract, that part of your body just won’t move. No, it was worse than a stroke. Simply
because it hurt. Unlike a stroke, it was painful, and it was the pain that
paralyzes.
Soon you discover that, as you try to
nourish yourself, if you’re not careful, the food will fall off your lips. The
same thing happened when you tried to take a sip of water. Adjustments have to
be made, so you can sustain yourself, using the side that you are not used to
using.
While you make attempts to get yourself
better, you realized the outside of your lips are changing too. It was as
cracked and as dry as a desert that hasn’t rain for a year. You tried
hydrating, drinking glasses of water but it was as if, the water just goes
right through you.
Eventually, you make the decision to make
an amateur diagnosis of what was wrong with you. As you stood in front of the
mirror, you probe, squeeze and then probe again before you finally see it, the
white devil. That thing that had been causing you your many hours of sleep.
There it was just staring at you that white flesh exposed with swollen red
tissues surrounding it, probably because you couldn’t get to it in time just
before the bacterial invasion. Now you know it was the dreaded ugam or as the rest of other Malaysians
call it the mouth ulcer.
As the pain throbs when you poke into it,
you make yet another important decision. There’s nothing more that you can do,
accept, letting your innate immunity do their job for you.
