gam jelah, nanti jahit you won't look as cute.

When you are in a baju kurung, carrying God knows what in your bag (laptop, telekung, make up stuff, stationary, mp4,and of course my phone) you think, you are late because it is a friday evening, never ever ever rush while you try to catch a bus ride home or this would happen.

But I felt it was kind of cool, with all the blood and all, the only downside was a little embrassed because jatuh mcm nangka da. and risau I will chip one of my teeth, but didn't.  There were those who helped get me back on my feet, tapi tak boleh ke diorg tunggu aku landing kat situ, sekejap menghayati pemandangan uitm yg indah, dah lah jatuh betul betul depan CiTU (kalo budak UiTM Shah Alam ,tak tau ape tu CiTU...) I wanted to take pictures of dried blood that covered my neck and tapi my friend who I met along the way suruh I was them off before she put antiseptic and put a band-aid on it. So no pictures of blood. 

I managed to beli air, hantar beg kat bilik sebelum pgi Pusat Kesihatan (nasib baik dkt je). But  I found out that nurses are better and they know a lot more than doctors do. Since she was the one who decided I should get my chin glued, rather than the doctor yg ckp "ni xde ape ni... sikit je, kena bersihkan je" since my chin won't stop bleeding. 

It was a rather productive treatment : sebab while she was gluing my wound, had a talk with her. That was cool.  Kak Faz was what I called her. She said I should get glued rather than stiches. the reason is due to the above mentioned title. (Wahaha cute kah, eden?)

So  yesterday, I got hurt, today my mom and dad visited me, tapi diorg tak perasaan pun till I told them sebelum diorg balik tadi, lepas tu siap call lagi to confirm : 

mami marah x? ayah marah x?

my mom punya response : baju koyak x, laptop rosak x?

while I'm here on my own doing nothing

Dissapointed... I thought he was like me. I long to meet someone like me. 

Someone who would put his hopes and dreams over everything else. Alas.. he is not. I really like him too. Even told him " Sayang ko" that night. But not like that. More like a big brother that I truly appreciate.For his support, his guidance. Crap!!! why did I say that to him?

I think it is because he was the one who was always there for me. He was the one who told me " jangan bagi org bagi tahu kau apa ko boleh dan tak boleh buat" , "percaya kat diri ko, aku tahu ko boleh" he was the only one who keep telling me I should believe and realise my dreams. He was the guy I would talk too if things get too hard or too unbearable.  This is why I would say such a thing too him.

Alas  he has a girlfriend. Whom that night was in his car, when we told him to pick us up, because  gate uitm seksyen 7 DAH TUTUP malam tu ( sebab buat kerja gila sampai pukul 12 malam). Apparently he introduced her to his family that night. I don't know why suddenly I feel all different about him. like he wasn't my friend anymore???.  But I know he is still the same person who supported me all those time, My PEMBAKAR SEMANGAT as I  would affectionately call him.

I didn't think he has a girlfriend. He sure never have mentioned her before. When we all went out together, he sure doesn't look like someone who have a girl friend.  I don't have a crush on him. I really don't. I just really want to meet someone like me. 

Someone who doesn't have a boyfriend and wants to achieves her hope and dreams over anything else. That someone would be socially retarded like me I guess. I don't have anything against it. It just that my bestfriend have a boy friend, and this guy have a girlfriend who he intends to marry. And I think they are rubbing it on my face

Susah sgt ke nak jumpa a friend who doesn't have a partner and just want to achieve his hopes and dreams. I guess I'm just afraid of losing my best friend and him to their loved ones. Even though there are times my best friend Zuzu, would say that she want to go out with just me , "Rad bila kita nak couple sama sama ni, asyik keluar ramai ramai je" She said something about " gila awak lain kalau awak dgn kita je". Takde bukti yg sahih that stated my crazy is different when I'm with her.

I would say " Saja, aku punya sukalah nak menduakan kau wahahaha"

I guess I am just afraid  because while they are with those who love them I'll be  out here on my own doing nothing.

can I have brains for dinner, perhaps my classmates'?

I find it hard to live my life doing something I love.
Bila assignment dan test berlambak.  Tahu jelah   a week before exam week
Bila two work appointments have been cancelled which shifted off my whole schedule for today and perhaps my entire week.
Its the mandarin video that worries me ( 1 scene pun x rakam lagi ) dgn 4 tests  reserved  untuk 4 hari and a lab report due on thursday and a project paper and presentation on tuesday..

Could also be because all I  had today was a cup of milo, peanut butter cookies and cintan tom yam for lunch. (I figured after, we shoot our movie, we will go out to eat)
So right now, I'm feeling kind of numb and empty inside perhaps due to the hunger and the depression that seems to envelop me because my classsmates cancelled everything today.

Feeling like a zombie today, can I have brains for dinner?

A lab Report on my sem break

 Introduction

For the short, unexpected sem break  I had during the school holidays, I went to Kelantan and Terengganu with my mom and dad. That was my first visit to the  Pantai Timur in over 22 years. Baru tahu that I'm very lucky  to be living in Tampin. Kesian  Diorang yg tinggal kelantan dgn terengganu, tak dapat balik selalu sebab jauh. My dad drove for over 12 hours (termasuk dgn sesat dan jamnya lagi dkt Kota Bharu tu.) Lenguh kaki my dad. I wanted to sleep the whole journey, tapi tak boleh dah terlalu lama tidur kat belakang.  but it was an interesting experience.

 Observation

 Rasenya yg paling pelik  was seeing things written in jawi,

courts in jawi

akademi kreatif dan inovasi lim kok wing

meena curry house dalam jawi

 My discussion

. Kita org stayed dkt Hotel Temenggung, (It was a ridiculously, sad hotel) visited 2 to 3 museums rasenya.  Rasanya org Kota Bharu sendiri tak pergi museum kut.  Rasanya kalo kat mane mane pun tourists yg banyak pgi museum.

then we went to pasar siti khadijah, my mom lah yg heaven while kat sana. Me? Well mula mula duduk mcm tunggul mase tgk mami  beli kain, lepas tu berdiri pulak mcm tunggul.

pasar siti khadijah

Then pergi terengganu, duduk kat kt resort bilik lebih luas, tapi water heater xde, air kena ambik kat bawah, bilik bau mcm lembap je sentiasa. pgi museum terengganu pulak, yg besar tu.  tgk masjid kristal,

pgi dataran apa ntah nama dia ntah.

the masjid kristal

Tapi makan dia, sedap, for two nights, kita org ate ikan bakar and we had sup perut, sebab  tempat lain takde.  And then  I watched wayang kulit for the first time in my life. Tapi tak paham sgt (bunyi musik yg kuat dan accent yg sgt thick) . Tapi takde video yg boleh post kat sini, sebab my mom punya kamera.

my mom kat dataran (I wasn't aiming at her back, but somehow she MANAGED to got herself in the picture)

 Conclusion

Overall, it was a great holiday, seminggu tu rase mcm takde assignment, lab report ke hape ke langsung. and I have come to a conclusion that Kelantan dgn Terengganu kalo panas,  panas betul, and pasar payang is like a maze, if you're on your own you could get lost and never see the light of day ever again. You will truly enjoy yourself dekat kelantan terengganu, if you are truly a girl (so what does that make me?) like my mom.

Owh and another picture taken when we were heading home

This was taken, when I was rudely woken up from my nap by my mom" RAD BANGUN, tgk tu KERTEH tempat buat petroleum, JGN TIDO BALIK!!! " tahulah  dia cikgu Geography kan.